There is more that I require of Thee…

Excuse me if I get a little long winded today. I  have so much to tell you all. It’s been a very eventful weekend. Grab some pop corn…

Thursday…I went to work just your normal day and ran into one of my co-workers who informed me that her dog had puppies and she was looking for good home for them. I was elated because I have been searching everywhere for puppies but I really didn’t want to pay for one because animals are everywhere…why pay?

Friday…She brought the puppies, 5 total, up to my job after I got off work and I looked at them. they were so cute that I took two of them. their names are Grace and Mercy. Anyway, later that evening I got dressed to go to a Gospel Fest with my sorority sisters and we had a good time. I could hardly wait to get back home to my babies though. I guess that was the motherly instinct kicking in. After the Gospel Fest we went to this party at  the Embassy Hotel for all of the Sorors and did the usual, strolled and danced a little. Nothing to different from the usual. I went home and played with my puppies then went to bed.

Saturday…I woke up earlier than usual and cleaned a little and played with Grace and Mercy. I called ‘Mr. Shortie’ and we got some pizza and cheese sticks and had a greasy lunch. He left for work and I started calling around to find Veterinarians to take my pups in for the routine check ups. My sorority sis came over and we watched some of your typical Saturday marathon reality TV series; Bridezilla, Real Housewives of New Jersey ( I heart reality TV). Its my guilty, trashy pleasure. I took the babies out for a half a second, ran a couple of errands, ate Wendy’s for dinner…eeewwww! It was the only thing open.

Sunday…I got up and got ready for church, got there 10 minutes late, but surprisingly they were running a little late too so I counted it a blessing. It was a good powerful service. The sermon was entitled ‘God is calling you to your Purpose’… I had always knew that I had a purpose, and work to do for God. I always have visions and dreams of myself singing and dancing and directing a children’s choir, but I though of them as my thoughts, not Gods. Something that I just thought up myself while daydreaming or something. At the end of the service, the pastors wife took me over to the side and asked me,’Have you said yes yet?” At first I did not understand, but soon after I realized that she meant have I committed to doing what the Lord has called me to do…ministering through music. I wept and wept because not only was it confirmation, I felt scared and embarrassed that it took me so long to come to the realization. I was scared because of the underlying thought that I am incapable of doing such. Scared because I have to get rid of even more things that have me enslaved but are comfortable to me. She also said that when she first saw me that she saw a yoke around my neck. That scared me because there are good yokes and bad yokes. The yoke of God, is easy and light, but the yoke of flesh is the exact opposite and hard to escape. I said yes to my calling, However, I need clarity now and I just have to take it one day at a time…Pray for me.

Peace!!!